It's sad when someone you know become someone you knew. And no, i'm not talking about ex-boyfriend or whatsoever. I'm talking about a family member, my cousin to be exact. She's one year older and seriously we used to be so freaking close to each other. I used to spent my time living in her house when December arrives. We had so much fun. We created this unique "dance" together. We recorded many silly moments. She used to put make-up on my face because let's face it, i'm ugly LOL. She used to play with my hair, fooling around as if she's a hair stylist. But as we grew older, this special bond we had seems to be broken pieces by pieces. It goes from bad to worst, until we've reach the point where during the previous raya, we didn't even say a word to each other even though we were sitting next to each other.
Girl, i know you hate me. I know, you made it obvious. You love to compete in a bad way. You condemn the way i dress. You said i'm too alim as if it's a bad thing. What do you expect me to do, girl? You want me to curse a lot? You want me to pretend? No girl, no. Once you asked me "What brand is you bag?". I find that stupid. I never did anything like that to you. I never look down at your house or anything. And one thing that hurt the most is when it comes to intelligence matter. And im not going to elaborate on that.
I was very eager to meet you during the raya. Haven't seen you in a year you know. I miss you because you're the closest cousin i have. But i was very terasa when i said "Hai" eagerly and you just replied monotonously, not to mention the face you made. Sakit gila. I know you'll be reading this. I know.
I'm sorry if i did anything wrong. If you don't wanna talk to me ever again, i'm okay with that. Just don't come and find me when you have any problems. Go seek another family members. And i'm sorry we turned out to be this way.
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