I don't like this. This is not what I hoped for. I thought I'd be like having way much fun now, but no. My dad's freaking busy with work and i don't have any driving license to go anywhere i want. I feel so sad. I feel so lifeless. Being on the social networks make me feel that even more. Feeling like deactivating everything and actually "live". But i know that's impossible because im addicted already. It's only two days since SPM ended and im already feeling bored. What a lifeless girl i am. Work? I don't think so, my mum didn't give me the permission. And idk why, i get pissed off so quickly nowadays. Suddenly all those feelings that I bottled up before SPM started to come all at once. I once said "Let's put aside all this shit for a while. Im gonna handle this after SPM ends." Thinking about whatever happened before makes my heart crack a little. How did I manage to ignore all those feelings before? I seriously dont know. Haish.
Yeah serves me right.
I need a holiday. A real one. Let's go overseas or something. I need to experience another climate. Let's go to the beach. Went to Pulau Tioman last year and it was freakin awesome! Let's go again. Let's go ice-skating for 4 hours. Let's hangout in the mall, doing nothing. Let's buy new novels, leave me in the MPH for the whole day i dont mind. Let's bake cakes with the girls, let's drive everywhere. Let's scream! Let's literally have fun!
Okay that's it. Shut up. Im gonna have some chocolate cake because im feeling uhhh. Bye.
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