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When I was about 13, I was shocked when i read something from somewhere stating that Menengah Atas students need to study about approximately 3 hours daily.  Big fat liar. Nobody study as long as that. It's too long, my pelvic girdle/big fat ass will hurt by just sitting on this uncomfortable chair.

After literally experiencing SPM, felt it, all the pain tears and joy, I've realised that 3 hours is actually really really short. You can do Additional Mathematics without even realising that it has pass midnight already where you should be sleeping, entering your dreamland meeting a prince on a white horse or something, or end up in a field full or gigantic foods and desserts yumyumyum like they have in the Cloudy Chance Meatball thingy something (I forgot the movie tittle). 

I don't know about you guys, but my prime time is usually from 9pm until 12am. I'll go mad if anyone disturb me at that time.Screamed a lot at my sister and younger brothers for making too much noises. Please, it's my intimate time with the books for God's sake! lol. I always end up fighting with my sister about this. She wants to have her beauty sleep with the lights off, but nooooo i need the lights or else my eyesight will go from bad to worst. 

Yknow, what im trying to say is that i kindda miss late night studying. I know , baru satu hari dah mengada. After Biology ended, i cried. I just couldnt believe it's over. Being in my room, seeing all those sticky notes are gone make me go sad. Seeing how clear my study table are now, it's just uhh. Idk how to explain this feeling. Seeing my rak kosong, no more text books or reference books make me go 'wow, my two years supply are gone'. Yes i am glad i'm free at last! But in the same time, i cant deny that im sad this routine is over. 

Im not a school kid anymore. It's hard to inteprate that. For 11 years my mind have been set that i'm a school kid, need to wear that maroon uniform i've been wearing since form 1. Have to face the nice and fierce teachers. Being pinched at the shoulder for not finishing any homeworks. Gossipping about the makcik kantin that we all hated. Stalking ex-boyfriend with his new girl in the same school lol. hehe. All that was fun. Having fun with my girls and the boys are just wow. Studying together, PJ-ing together, fighting together, copying homeworks together, go to the toilet to excrete urine together hahahaha. Kbye. 

Maybe i'm just to scared to get out from my comfort zone. I've been in this bubble for too long i dont know how to get out by myself. 

The bell has rang. Farah, reality check. School's over for you. It's 10pm, i should probably go to bed. Lights off!